Time


That day on the 3rd of May.

What are the odds.

It’s hard to believe we have Dylan’s three month check up coming up, exactly a year after his first visit to the doctor, with symptoms of headaches and vomiting, really thinking nothing serious was wrong. The first thing the doctor had said when seeing Dylan was “maybe his fringe is too long” , you know maybe his hair was in his face making him get headaches….. Boy was that far from the reality.

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A life to remember – Dad

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“It’s been an honor Dad.
Today we are Celebrating a life well lived
He was loud
Strong willed
Hard working
Funny and friendly
He was so loved
And he will be very fondly remembered.
Generous, a joker and so helpful, he accepted you as is ……”

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Fly

How lucky can one girl be !

Currently I am 30 thousand feet somewhere over Australia sipping on a cool glass of peach and coconut water, ok it’s a recyclable plastic cup but it’s pretty sweet being served while I watch a new release movie… Doctor Strange is on the menu at the moment. And talking of menus there’s a pretty interesting selection of eats to choose from…. Yip I’m living the life.

It was still dark outside when I woke this morning…. Well I hadn’t really slept but at least I had some rest. As the light began to slowly perforate the dark sky I gently woke the boys and as the sun rose we got ready to leave.

My bags packed. I was ready to go. My mother heart already missing my forever babies.

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Today

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Infinite possibilities are created in chaos

We huddle tightly below deck, while the ferocity of the storm rips relentlessly at our vessel. Battered continuously, whipped around like a rag doll there’s little we can do. Our control swept right from under us we are left clinging on to one another. Then, just as suddenly as this all began, there’s a break in the clouds, there’s an uneasy calm, an almost sickening stillness. We are left bobbing in a very vast ocean, quite unsure of any direction.
The few things that keep us afloat during the brutality of this …. Limitless courage, unconditional acceptance, surrendered trust, total presence, and of course love. These things remain with us. Continue reading “Today”

Twisted 2016

Twisted Learn to dance to the music of the Universe.


As 2016 draws to a close I was very tempted to say my “Thank F…ing goodness it’s over, what a crazy year it’s been filled with so many sad events” BUT my mind drifted to the joy, the courage, the incredible experiences, the amazing lessons, the unconditional love and kindness I was gifted, the time and generosity of those close to me and those I am connected to in spirit but yet to meet in the flesh. Both strangers and friends have enriched my life this year.

So many beautiful babies were born this year, lovers secured their commitments to one another, people went out exploring, on magical adventures, changed directions in their lives, achieved their dreams, shared special moments, comforted each other in moments of sadness. All plans became little floating bubbles, no rigidity at all. There was illness and healing, and well, so much more, we are living an extraordinary life with all its ups and downs and twists and turns.

Unravel – Finding a way back to your essence is a journey worth traveling.

 

How fortunate we were that we got our Australian citizenship at the beginning of this year, a dream I have had since I was 6 years old. 

How fortunate I followed my intuition beyond the fear of judgement and posted on Facebook asking for help, I listened and then took action. Dylan’s life was saved through the efforts of many, what incredible things we have learnt, not just the medical mambo jumbo but the human stories, the compassion, the commitment, the generosity …. I could go on and on. 

Gifted the opportunity to shed my armor and be vulnerable, and witness the magnificence of the human spirit, the courage of children, the love between brothers, the presence and acceptance of little people on massive journeys.
How fortunate I feel that no matter the physical distance I am still connected with those I love, technology has most certainly helped enrich my relationships, bridging time and distance, especially at those times of crisis but also times of shared joy.

Both tears and laughter have been my constant companions this year, how grateful I am that I can feel such depths of emotion.

Be Here Now – See your Wisdom


This year has been profound, both terrifying and magnificent. I know, I love, I laugh, I am more because of these experiences.

Thank you for the music, and the incredible ride. 

Ps the roller coaster was thrilling I am now ready to have a go on the ……. surprise me, I trust you!

My Perception colors my Reality


This year was a little bit Twisted, as my world began to Unravel I had to learn to dance to the music of the universe, finding a way back to my essence has been a journey worth traveling. I am here now, I see my wisdom, as my perception colours my reality, I will always reserve the right to change, grow, expand and evolve.

I reserve the right to Change, Grow, Expand, Evolve


Hate … 


Hate is such a strong word … One I don’t like to use … But seriously … I absolutely hate that my normal is supporting my son while he vomits, I hate that he is so critically thin, that the treatments I sign him up for damage parts of his delicate body, I hate that I am so helpless and I hate that I am angry.
I am so exhausted.
I hate feeling this aching in my chest.
Fuck cancer !
I love being honest.

Awake and Aware

 

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“we all get rocks along the journey, they’re all gems in their own right”

Dylan, my 13 year old son and I started an Instagram page a month or so ago, sharing his ‘treatment’ journey, to help create awareness of childhood cancer. This journey is pretty hectic and I have found that sharing short and fast is easier rather than a longer piece written on a blog, so haven’t written much here. But Instagram is our shared page for sharing and my blog is my space for sharing. I still honor and respect that this is Dylan’s journey and so I get his ‘approval’ before I share anything publicly, but I suppose I can share differently in my blog.
It’s been 6 months that we’ve been on this crazy ride and I recently shared a collection of ‘the face of childhood cancer’ of Dylan, and realized that we are still not really sharing all of it, I’m not sure the whole picture can ever be shared, but in our quest to raise awareness I write this short blog and share it with you all.

 

I can’t share photos of Dylan in pain, crying, frustrated, sick, confused and afraid because at those moments I was holding him, comforting him, drying his tears, wiping his head, holding the vomit bag, having him squeeze my hand … There are accidental shots, very far and few between that capture the rest of the reality behind the smile. Maybe this is why we have half a picture of what childhood cancer really is.
Childhood cancer doesn’t end after the last radiation or the final chemo drug is injected. Children’s bodies and minds are not fully grown, so the treatments they receive have very far reaching consequences on their lives, forever. When Dylan has his final dose of chemo, his journey changes,


it doesn’t end. I share this not for pity or sympathy, but for awareness, I share this for the others who will encounter this path in life, for the ones who won’t, because I never knew this world existed until now, perhaps sharing this will bring that one day closer, the day where treatments are only helpful and not harmful.

 

Our only intention is to create awareness. Help us make a difference to the future of Children who will travel this path, share the awareness, be the change.

 

image‘This kid is definitely walking this path in presence and peace with courage and acceptance.’

Reviewing the Retrograde

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Not as unusual as you may think.
So five or more planets retrograde at the same time… This happens more often than not, so it’s pretty normal, just like each year you get the different seasons, some are more extreme than others, some impact you more personally. Astrology is a little similar to this, there are cycles, it’s constantly moving and doing its thing, just like the weather.

Well yes you may wonder what on earth drove me to question the recent hype about ‘five planets retrograde hasn’t happened in over a decade’ headliners, perhaps it’s all that Scorpio investigative, quest to find the truth, my degrees of trusting, digging deeper, or perhaps I’m bored and have nothing better to do than question the current hype.
Whatever the driving force is I spent some time looking back over the years. Starting in the present 2016 and eventually stopping in 1988.
I did it for me, myself and I, to quench my thirst for the truth, boarder line obsession to know if it was true, and to see if I could somehow discover a pattern or something that could link this year, the five retrogrades to the time before, when this happened (as it has been loosely stated ‘a decade or so ago’).

I’ve chosen to share this because well I feel that the truth has been manipulated and although the current planets that are retrograde together now haven’t occurred in the same pattern before, there have definitely been five or more planets retrograde at the same time with more frequency than one may of been led to believe.
So any amount of fear that may or may not of been generated by ‘five planets retrograde’ can be reassessed – we’ve done it multiple times, it’s a common occurrence, the world, you and I have experienced these energies and are well versed in these energies, and we will continue to experience these energies is varying degrees in the future.

On that note, you can read about it, you can learn more about it, you can integrate the knowledge from it into your life, you can choose how much or how little you delve into it, you can be as prepared as much or as little as you like. It’s Life Live it!
I live in Melbourne so I’ve got the sunblock, the umbrella, the coat and the Tshirt.

Below I have listed the month and year that had five or more retrograde planets together. This is not conclusive, and there may of been more years within this time frame that had five or more planets retrograde at the same time, but my thirst had been quenched and I stopped looking.

Note – Retrogrades are not Rare.
The outer planets Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto, retrograde once a year, this includes Chiron.
The two planets closest to Earth retrograde less often – Mars retrogrades approximately once every two years, while Venus retrogrades approximately once every 19 months.
Mercury retrogrades 3, sometimes 4 times a year.
June 1988
Uranus in Sagittarius
Saturn in Sagittarius
Neptune in Capricorn
Venus in Gemini
Mercury in Gemini
Pluto in Scorpio

May 1989
Pluto in Scorpio
Uranus in Capricorn
Neptune in Capricorn
Saturn in Capricorn
Mercury in Gemini

August 1991
Saturn in Aquarius
Venus in Virgo
Mercury in Virgo
Uranus in Capricorn
Neptune in Capricorn

July 1993
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Saturn in Aquarius
Mercury in Cancer
Pluto in Scorpio

June 1994
Pluto in Scorpio
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Mercury in Cancer
Jupiter in Scorpio

June 1995
Pluto in Scorpio
Jupiter in Sagittarius
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Mercury in Gemini

July 1999
Neptune in Aquarius
Uranus in Aquarius
Mercury in Leo
Venus in Virgo
Chiron in Scorpio
Pluto in Sagittarius

August 2003
Uranus in Pisces
Mars in Pisces
Mercury in Virgo
Pluto in Sagittarius
Chiron in Capricorn
Neptune in Aquarius

September 2010
Neptune in Aquarius
Chiron in Aquarius
Uranus in Pisces
Jupiter in Aries
Mercury in Virgo
Pluto in Capricorn

July 2015
Pluto in Capricorn
Neptune in Pisces
Chiron in Pisces
Uranus in Aries
Venus in Virgo
Saturn in Scorpio

April 2016
Mars in Sagittarius
Saturn in Sagittarius
Pluto in Capricorn
Mercury in Taurus
Jupiter in Virgo