Time


That day on the 3rd of May.

What are the odds.

It’s hard to believe we have Dylan’s three month check up coming up, exactly a year after his first visit to the doctor, with symptoms of headaches and vomiting, really thinking nothing serious was wrong. The first thing the doctor had said when seeing Dylan was “maybe his fringe is too long” , you know maybe his hair was in his face making him get headaches….. Boy was that far from the reality.

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A life to remember – Dad

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“It’s been an honor Dad.
Today we are Celebrating a life well lived
He was loud
Strong willed
Hard working
Funny and friendly
He was so loved
And he will be very fondly remembered.
Generous, a joker and so helpful, he accepted you as is ……”

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Fly

How lucky can one girl be !

Currently I am 30 thousand feet somewhere over Australia sipping on a cool glass of peach and coconut water, ok it’s a recyclable plastic cup but it’s pretty sweet being served while I watch a new release movie… Doctor Strange is on the menu at the moment. And talking of menus there’s a pretty interesting selection of eats to choose from…. Yip I’m living the life.

It was still dark outside when I woke this morning…. Well I hadn’t really slept but at least I had some rest. As the light began to slowly perforate the dark sky I gently woke the boys and as the sun rose we got ready to leave.

My bags packed. I was ready to go. My mother heart already missing my forever babies.

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Today

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Infinite possibilities are created in chaos

We huddle tightly below deck, while the ferocity of the storm rips relentlessly at our vessel. Battered continuously, whipped around like a rag doll there’s little we can do. Our control swept right from under us we are left clinging on to one another. Then, just as suddenly as this all began, there’s a break in the clouds, there’s an uneasy calm, an almost sickening stillness. We are left bobbing in a very vast ocean, quite unsure of any direction.
The few things that keep us afloat during the brutality of this …. Limitless courage, unconditional acceptance, surrendered trust, total presence, and of course love. These things remain with us. Continue reading “Today”

Hate … 


Hate is such a strong word … One I don’t like to use … But seriously … I absolutely hate that my normal is supporting my son while he vomits, I hate that he is so critically thin, that the treatments I sign him up for damage parts of his delicate body, I hate that I am so helpless and I hate that I am angry.
I am so exhausted.
I hate feeling this aching in my chest.
Fuck cancer !
I love being honest.

Awake and Aware

 

imageAwake and Aware
“we all get rocks along the journey, they’re all gems in their own right”

Dylan, my 13 year old son and I started an Instagram page a month or so ago, sharing his ‘treatment’ journey, to help create awareness of childhood cancer. This journey is pretty hectic and I have found that sharing short and fast is easier rather than a longer piece written on a blog, so haven’t written much here. But Instagram is our shared page for sharing and my blog is my space for sharing. I still honor and respect that this is Dylan’s journey and so I get his ‘approval’ before I share anything publicly, but I suppose I can share differently in my blog.
It’s been 6 months that we’ve been on this crazy ride and I recently shared a collection of ‘the face of childhood cancer’ of Dylan, and realized that we are still not really sharing all of it, I’m not sure the whole picture can ever be shared, but in our quest to raise awareness I write this short blog and share it with you all.

 

I can’t share photos of Dylan in pain, crying, frustrated, sick, confused and afraid because at those moments I was holding him, comforting him, drying his tears, wiping his head, holding the vomit bag, having him squeeze my hand … There are accidental shots, very far and few between that capture the rest of the reality behind the smile. Maybe this is why we have half a picture of what childhood cancer really is.
Childhood cancer doesn’t end after the last radiation or the final chemo drug is injected. Children’s bodies and minds are not fully grown, so the treatments they receive have very far reaching consequences on their lives, forever. When Dylan has his final dose of chemo, his journey changes,


it doesn’t end. I share this not for pity or sympathy, but for awareness, I share this for the others who will encounter this path in life, for the ones who won’t, because I never knew this world existed until now, perhaps sharing this will bring that one day closer, the day where treatments are only helpful and not harmful.

 

Our only intention is to create awareness. Help us make a difference to the future of Children who will travel this path, share the awareness, be the change.

 

image‘This kid is definitely walking this path in presence and peace with courage and acceptance.’

Reviewing the Retrograde

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Not as unusual as you may think.
So five or more planets retrograde at the same time… This happens more often than not, so it’s pretty normal, just like each year you get the different seasons, some are more extreme than others, some impact you more personally. Astrology is a little similar to this, there are cycles, it’s constantly moving and doing its thing, just like the weather.

Well yes you may wonder what on earth drove me to question the recent hype about ‘five planets retrograde hasn’t happened in over a decade’ headliners, perhaps it’s all that Scorpio investigative, quest to find the truth, my degrees of trusting, digging deeper, or perhaps I’m bored and have nothing better to do than question the current hype.
Whatever the driving force is I spent some time looking back over the years. Starting in the present 2016 and eventually stopping in 1988.
I did it for me, myself and I, to quench my thirst for the truth, boarder line obsession to know if it was true, and to see if I could somehow discover a pattern or something that could link this year, the five retrogrades to the time before, when this happened (as it has been loosely stated ‘a decade or so ago’).

I’ve chosen to share this because well I feel that the truth has been manipulated and although the current planets that are retrograde together now haven’t occurred in the same pattern before, there have definitely been five or more planets retrograde at the same time with more frequency than one may of been led to believe.
So any amount of fear that may or may not of been generated by ‘five planets retrograde’ can be reassessed – we’ve done it multiple times, it’s a common occurrence, the world, you and I have experienced these energies and are well versed in these energies, and we will continue to experience these energies is varying degrees in the future.

On that note, you can read about it, you can learn more about it, you can integrate the knowledge from it into your life, you can choose how much or how little you delve into it, you can be as prepared as much or as little as you like. It’s Life Live it!
I live in Melbourne so I’ve got the sunblock, the umbrella, the coat and the Tshirt.

Below I have listed the month and year that had five or more retrograde planets together. This is not conclusive, and there may of been more years within this time frame that had five or more planets retrograde at the same time, but my thirst had been quenched and I stopped looking.

Note – Retrogrades are not Rare.
The outer planets Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto, retrograde once a year, this includes Chiron.
The two planets closest to Earth retrograde less often – Mars retrogrades approximately once every two years, while Venus retrogrades approximately once every 19 months.
Mercury retrogrades 3, sometimes 4 times a year.
June 1988
Uranus in Sagittarius
Saturn in Sagittarius
Neptune in Capricorn
Venus in Gemini
Mercury in Gemini
Pluto in Scorpio

May 1989
Pluto in Scorpio
Uranus in Capricorn
Neptune in Capricorn
Saturn in Capricorn
Mercury in Gemini

August 1991
Saturn in Aquarius
Venus in Virgo
Mercury in Virgo
Uranus in Capricorn
Neptune in Capricorn

July 1993
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Saturn in Aquarius
Mercury in Cancer
Pluto in Scorpio

June 1994
Pluto in Scorpio
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Mercury in Cancer
Jupiter in Scorpio

June 1995
Pluto in Scorpio
Jupiter in Sagittarius
Neptune in Capricorn
Uranus in Capricorn
Mercury in Gemini

July 1999
Neptune in Aquarius
Uranus in Aquarius
Mercury in Leo
Venus in Virgo
Chiron in Scorpio
Pluto in Sagittarius

August 2003
Uranus in Pisces
Mars in Pisces
Mercury in Virgo
Pluto in Sagittarius
Chiron in Capricorn
Neptune in Aquarius

September 2010
Neptune in Aquarius
Chiron in Aquarius
Uranus in Pisces
Jupiter in Aries
Mercury in Virgo
Pluto in Capricorn

July 2015
Pluto in Capricorn
Neptune in Pisces
Chiron in Pisces
Uranus in Aries
Venus in Virgo
Saturn in Scorpio

April 2016
Mars in Sagittarius
Saturn in Sagittarius
Pluto in Capricorn
Mercury in Taurus
Jupiter in Virgo

 

 

My Journey Through the Universe

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When I began this journey a few years ago I had no idea how things would unfold, my expectations were limited in a sense – I thought I would learn about astrology in a new way with the usual meanings. Well that didn’t quite happen, something much more valuable was learnt, yip, I was being taught how to trust.
The classes involved meditation, attunement and conversation. Both a unique experience and a shared experience.

My very first class, we were doing Aries and Mars, I was a little nervous, I really had no idea what to expect, but I was willing and eager to learn. So we begin with meditation, followed by attunement, very much like a surrender and an opening up to another dimension, the information begins to flow, somewhat haphazardly but flow it does.
I feel this energy physically, I see images, like watching a variety of film clips, the images seem random, with not much relevance, I cannot track time at all.

“Traveling fast, through time, through history, this is very fast moving, I feel pressure in my head, it’s busy. I see an old man, with a beard and long hair. I see the eye of Horus, the colour is deep golden orange, the word Zeus is heard, there’s a storm swirling, eye of the storm, Observe, right foot and left shoulder feels a pressure, my right hand is burning. Initially I feel a bit of fear, there’s an image of almost a devil? buffalo? ram?
I am told – Forget all, let go of what you know about it. Grab the bull by the horns…”

This was my experience with the Aries energy….a pretty hot start with a profound message – “Forget all, let go of what you know about it. Grab the bull by the horns”. I understood this as a very clear message that throughout this journey through the stars I would need to go in as a ‘clean slate’ if I wanted to ‘get’ the messages that were being delivered through me.
It took me a number of weeks, probably months before I learnt how to work more effectively with this. Initially I made notes, attempting to capture those feelings I experienced and made rough sketches of what images I had seen, but it was challenging for me to translate it into something I understood and could share. Then one day I sat down and began to draw it, and that was it, each image was captured and the words written and it felt understood – granted it was perhaps only understood by me, but I felt a great sense of consolidation as each energy was transferred from my mind onto paper. As the year progressed I had connected more with my guides, and was able to ask them for assistance in understanding things, I also learnt to ask questions while experiencing the energies, thus getting more clarity and so much more information.

Once I had completed the course, all attunements done, it was time for me to consolidate all the information I had received. The images had flowed out of me with ease that year, the creative process seemed to be so simple. Perhaps because I was a vessel and allowed it to flow freely. But next came the more technical side of things, not my forte but something I felt compelled to do. So I did the research and finally found a place online that printed oracle cards, well they print all sorts of things, but I just wanted to have one deck of cards printed, for my reference. After trial and error, lots of help form my husband, I finally got my astrology oracle cards printed.
At this point I was very tempted to pack it all away and begin a new journey of discovery, but I was being nudge to share more, I was being guided to share this joy and passion for astrology with others. Now I was totally out of my comfort zone, astrology is this lifelong study that cannot be boxed into a single category, it’s history goes so far back, it seeps into every culture that ever existed, it’s infused into nature, surrounded by mystery and magic but calculated by mathematics, it’s not a belief and it’s not a science it is something beyond that, and I do believe it will go on evolving, expanding and enticing us forever.
Anyway this seemed like the test, the personal test to see if I trusted myself, trusted the universe, if I could feel the fear and do it anyway! So I stepped out, I started a study group, where for a year we shared our unique impressions of these cards. I learnt so much, I saw more in each card, different perspectives and messages. As I read, and watch and learnt more about the world of astrology I saw more depth in these cards, mythology, colours, animals, elements, feelings, so many things began to reveal themselves. The one truth I am always being reminded of is that it’s an intuitive journey, in an evolving world so I must allow this free flow of information, respecting others unique perspectives and trusting myself.
And so now here I am, compelled to share my love of astrology and the wisdoms she holds, I have shared these cards, and am still excavating information from them, there is no final destination just a constantly evolving adventure.

As I now embark on my journey further I would love for you to share in this adventure. I will share what I discover as I dig a little deeper with each individual energy and your feedback, insights and inspired thoughts will be most welcome.