Two years ago today, was the first of many MRIs that Dylan has had. Although the results were not at all expected and completely shocking I am grateful every day that he had that first mri, the one that eventually led us here, past surgeries, radiation, chemotherapy, a multitude of test, procedures and medications to NED (no evidence of disease).Continue reading “Reflection ~ 2 years”→
I so often read those ‘copy me and share’ Facebook posts about being available to help, about reaching out for help. I wonder how much weight is in that, I wonder how many people reach out when they need to. I know I struggled to ask for help, and so often I go to an auto response of ‘great thanks, how are you’. I rarely do that now days. I’m much more raw, naked and open … It’s not hard to know how I am feeling if you ask. It was Dylan’s challenging health journey that tipped me over the edge. Continue reading “Reaching out”→
Today I am grateful for those who have witnessed my truth, encouraged my authenticity and supported my vulnerability. Those who acknowledge others journeys no matter how rough and tumbled it may be are what I am grateful for. And I am grateful for the experiences which have allowed for my unraveling to open to more love and more empathy. Continue reading “Journal entry – Between the space”→
“It’s been an honor Dad.
Today we are Celebrating a life well lived
He was loud
Funny and friendly
He was so loved
And he will be very fondly remembered.
Generous, a joker and so helpful, he accepted you as is ……”
Twisted – Learn to dance to the music of the Universe.
As 2016 draws to a close I was very tempted to say my “Thank F…ing goodness it’s over, what a crazy year it’s been filled with so many sad events” BUT my mind drifted to the joy, the courage, the incredible experiences, the amazing lessons, the unconditional love and kindness I was gifted, the time and generosity of those close to me and those I am connected to in spirit but yet to meet in the flesh. Both strangers and friends have enriched my life this year.
So many beautiful babies were born this year, lovers secured their commitments to one another, people went out exploring, on magical adventures, changed directions in their lives, achieved their dreams, shared special moments, comforted each other in moments of sadness. All plans became little floating bubbles, no rigidity at all. There was illness and healing, and well, so much more, we are living an extraordinary life with all its ups and downs and twists and turns.
How fortunate we were that we got our Australian citizenship at the beginning of this year, a dream I have had since I was 6 years old.
How fortunate I followed my intuition beyond the fear of judgement and posted on Facebook asking for help, I listened and then took action. Dylan’s life was saved through the efforts of many, what incredible things we have learnt, not just the medical mambo jumbo but the human stories, the compassion, the commitment, the generosity …. I could go on and on.
Gifted the opportunity to shed my armor and be vulnerable, and witness the magnificence of the human spirit, the courage of children, the love between brothers, the presence and acceptance of little people on massive journeys.
How fortunate I feel that no matter the physical distance I am still connected with those I love, technology has most certainly helped enrich my relationships, bridging time and distance, especially at those times of crisis but also times of shared joy.
Both tears and laughter have been my constant companions this year, how grateful I am that I can feel such depths of emotion.
This year has been profound, both terrifying and magnificent. I know, I love, I laugh, I am more because of these experiences.
Thank you for the music, and the incredible ride.
Ps the roller coaster was thrilling I am now ready to have a go on the ……. surprise me, I trust you!
This year was a little bit Twisted, as my world began to Unravel I had to learn to dance to the music of the universe, finding a way back to my essence has been a journey worth traveling. I am here now, I see my wisdom, as my perception colours my reality, I will always reserve the right to change, grow, expand and evolve.